So wassup?! Ok my day was amazing, how as yours? I have had a LOT of energy today and that is because I stuck to the water! I didn't buckle under and drink soda! However, I did eat something I probably shouldn't have! I ate a few fish sticks! I know that is was bad, but then I chased it with fruit! It's never good to chase cooked foods with fruit because it doesn't digest properly. Other than that I was good all day! I was actually raw! I was asleep until 10 something so I didn't eat breakfast, which is bad I know! I had a salad of just plain lettuce and half a tomato. It was very satisfying, granted it should have been a bigger salad, but I used what little food we have here. I drank water the rest of the day and when my mom got back she brought food home. I ate an orange. After awhile she cooked some fish sticks and fried some potatoes! I did NOT eat those potato wedges at all! So that's really good, and I know the process of fully committing to raw food and living a high carb raw vegan lifestyle is going to take a bit. I mean I don't have the money to bank-roll it right now, and my mom won't help because she doesn't believe in veganism. So I will have to put it off for now, but that doesn't mean I'm going to shove a bunch of crap into my body. I am going to try to eat as raw as possible or at least cooked vegan for awhile. Anyways today was great I felt less crappy, actually I've been feeling good all day! I got a lot done as well! I cleaned and cleaned and I put God's message out there! That was the most satisfying and freeing part of my day. I felt so good about myself after doing that! It felt amazing to see how many page views I have gotten too! 29 today! Can you believe that?! Before I used to get only 1 and now it's is so much more! I just hope a positive message is getting across! Well that is all I have for now I will see you next blog! God bless!
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~Ciao~
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Oh Glorious Day
good morning everybody! i am gonna share some scripture with you this morning! So the first part I will be sharing is in the Gospel of Luke 23:1-25. So open your Bibles, my version is the New Living Translation so if your is said differently, sorry.
Luke 23:1-25:
Jesus' Trial before Pilate
Then the entire council took Jesus over to Pilate, the Roman governor. They began at once to state their case: "this man has been leading our people to ruin by telling them no to pay their taxes to the Roman government and by claiming he is the Messiah, a king." So Pilate asked him, "Are you the King of Jews?" Jesus replied, "Yes, it is as you say." Pilate turned to the leading priests and to the crowd and said, "I find nothing wrong with this man!" Then they became desperate. "But he is causing riots everywhere he goes, all over Judea, from Galilee to Jerusalem!" "Oh, is he a Galilean?" Pilate asked. When they answered that he was, Pilate sent him to Herod Antipas, because Galilee was under Herod's jurisdiction, and Herod happened to be in Jerusalem at the time. Herod was delighted at the opportunity to see Jesus, because he had heard about him and had been hoping for a long to see perform a miracle. He asked Jesus question after question, but Jesus refused to answer. Meanwhile, the leading priests and teachers or religious law stood there shouting their accusations. Now Herod and his soldiers began mocking and ridiculing Jesus. They put a royal robe on him and sent him back to Pilate. Herod and Pilate, who had been enemies before, became friends that day. Then Pilate called together the leading priests and other religious leaders, along with the people, and he announced his verdict. "You brought this man to me, accusing him of leading a revolt. I have examined him thoroughly on this point in your presence and find him innocent. Herod came to same conclusion and sent him back to us. Nothing this man has done calls for the death penalty. So I will have him flogged, but then I will release him." Then a mighty roar rose from the crowd, and with one voice they shouted, "Kill him, and release Barabbas to us!" (Barabbas was in prison for murder and for taking part in insurrection in Jerusalem against the government.) Pilate argued with them, because he wanted to release Jesus. But they shouted, "Crucify him! Crucify him!" For the third time he demanded, " Why? What crime has he committed? I have found no reason to sentence him to death. I will therefore flog him and let him go." But the crowd shouted louder and louder for Jesus' death, and their voices prevailed. So Pilate sentenced Jesus to die as they demanded. As they requested, he released Barabbas, the man in prison for insurrection and murder. But he delivered Jesus over to them to do as they wished.
Isn't that just horrible!? I know He had to go through that so we can all be alive today, but it is just awful. It goes to show that human nature really hasn't evolved that much. I mean we don't go around demanding to crucify people, but the violent nature is still around. Now the next part of scripture I am going to share with you is Genesis 41.
Genesis 41
Pharaoh's Dream
Two years later, Pharaoh dreamed that he was standing on the bank of the Nile River. In his dream, seven fat, healthy-looking cows suddenly came up out of the river and began grazing along its bank.Then seven other cows came up from the river, but these were very ugly and gaunt. These cows went over and stood beside the fat cows.Then the thin, ugly cows ate the fat ones! At this point in the dream, Pharaoh woke up. Soon he fell asleep again and had a second dream. This time he saw seven heads of grain on one stalk, with every kernel well formed and plump. Then suddenly, seven more heads appeared on the stalk, but these were shriveled and withered by the east wind. And these thin heads swallowed up the seven plump, well-formed heads! Then Pharaoh woke up again and realized it was a dream. The next morning, as he thought about it, Pharaoh became very concerned as to what the dreams might mean. So he called for all the magicians and wise men of Egypt and told them about his dreams, but not one of them could suggest what they meant. Then the king's cup-bearer spoke up. "Today I have been reminded of my failure," he said. "Some time ago, you were angry with the chief baker and me, and you imprisoned us in the palace of the captain of the guard. One night the chief baker and I each had a dream, and each dream had a meaning. We told the dreams to a young Hebrew man who was a servant of the captain of the guard. He told us what each of our dreams meant, and everything happened just as he said it would. I was restored to my position as cup-bearer, and the chief baker was executed and impaled on a pole." Pharaoh sent for Joseph at once, and he was brought hastily from the dungeon. After a quick shave and change of clothes, he went in and stood in Pharaoh's presence. "I had a dream last night," Pharaoh told him, "and none of these men can tell me what it means. But I have heard that you can interpret dreams, and that is why I have called for you." "It is beyond my power to do this," Joseph replied. "But God will tell you what it means and will set you at ease." So Pharaoh told him the dream. "I was standing on the bank of the Nile River," he said. "Suddenly, seven fat, healthy-looking cows came up out of the river and began grazing along its bank. But then seven other cows came up from the river. They were very thin and gaunt -- in fact, I've never seen such ugly animals in all the land of Egypt. These thin, ugly cows ate up the seven fat ones that had come out of the river first, but afterward they were still as ugly and gaunt as before! Then I woke up. "A little later I had another dream. This time there were seven heads of grain on one stalk, and all seven heads were plump and full. Then out of the same stalk came seven withered heads, shriveled by the east wind. And the withered heads swallowed up the plump ones! I told these dreams to my magicians, but not one of them could tell me what they mean." "Both dreams mean the same thing," Joseph told Pharaoh. "God was telling you what he is about to do. The seven fat cows and the seven plump heads of grain both represent seven years of prosperity. The seven thin, ugly cows and the seven withered heads of grain represent seven years of famine. This will happen just as I have described it, for God has shown you what he is about to do. The next seven years will be a period of great prosperity throughout the land of Egypt. But afterward there will be seven years of famine so great that all the prosperity will be forgotten and wiped out. Famine will destroy the land. This famine will be so terrible that even the memory of the good years will be erased. As for having the dream twice, it means that the matter has been decreed by God and that he will make these events happen soon. "My suggestion is that you find the wisest man in Egypt and put him in charge of a nationwide program. Let Pharaoh appoint officials over the land, and let them collect one-fifth of all the crops during the seven good years. Have them gather all the food and grain of these good years into the royal storehouses, and store it away so there will be food in the cities. That way there will be enough to eat when the seven years of famine come. Otherwise disaster will surely strike the land, and all the people will die." Joseph's suggestions were well received by Pharaoh and his advisers. As they discussed who should be appointed for the job, Pharaoh said, "Who could do it better than Joseph? For he is a man who is obviously filled with the spirit of God." Turning to Joseph, Pharaoh said, "Since God has revealed the meaning of the dreams to you, you are the wisest man in the land! I hereby appoint you to direct this project. You will manage my household and organize all my people. Only I will have a rank higher than yours." And Pharaoh said to Joseph, "I hereby put you in charge of the entire land of Egypt." Then Pharaoh placed his own signet ring on Joseph's finger as a symbol of his authority. He dressed him in beautiful clothing and placed the royal gold chain about his neck. Pharaoh also gave Joseph the chariot of his second-in-command, and wherever he went the command was shouted, "Kneel down!" So Joseph was put in charge of all Egypt. And Pharaoh said to Joseph, "I am the king, but no one will move a hand or a foot in the entire land of Egypt without your approval." Pharaoh renamed him Zaphenath-paneah and gave him a wife -- a young woman named Asenath, the daughter of Potiphera, priest of Heliopolis. So Joseph took charge of the entire land of Egypt. He was thirty years old when he entered the service of Pharaoh, the king of Egypt. And when Joseph left Pharaoh's presence, he made a tour of inspection throughout the land. And sure enough, for the next seven years there were bumper crops everywhere. During those years, Joseph took a portion of all the crops grown in Egypt and stored them for the government in nearby cities. After seven years, the granaries were filled to overflowing. There was so much grain, like sand on the seashore, that the people could not keep track of the amount. During this time, before the arrival of the first of the famine years, two sons were born to Joseph and his wife, Asenath, the daughter of Potiphera, priest of Heliopolis. Joseph named his older son Manasseh, for he said, "God has made me forget all my troubles and the family of my father." Joseph named his second son Ephraim, for he said, "God has made me fruitful in this land of my suffering." At last the seven years of plenty came to an end. Then the seven years of famine began, just as Joseph had predicted. There were crop failures in all the surrounding countries, too, but in Egypt there was plenty of grain in the storehouses. Throughout the land of Egypt the people began to starve. They pleaded with Pharaoh for food, and he told them, "Go to Joseph and do whatever he tells you." So with severe famine everywhere in the land, Joseph opened up the storehouses and sold grain to the Egyptians. And people from surrounding lands also came to Egypt to buy grain from Joseph because the famine was severe throughout the world.
Wow! Could you imagine that now? I mean a famine now would devastate this entire world! The last part of scripture I want to share with you is in the Book of Psalms Chapter 32
Psalms 32
A pslam of David,
Oh, what joy for those
whose rebellion is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight!
Yes what joy for those
whose record the Lord has cleared of sin,
whose lives are lived in complete
honesty!
When I refused to confess my sin,
I was weak and miserable,
and I groaned all day long.
Day and night your hand of discipline was
heavy on me.
My strength evaporated like water in
the summer heat.
Interlude
Finally, I confessed all my sins to you
and stopped trying to hide them.
I said to myself, "I will confess my
rebellion to the Lord."
And you forgave me! All of my guilt is
gone.
Interlude
Therefore, let all the godly confess their
rebellion to you while there is time,
that they may not drown in the
floodwaters of judgment.
For you are my hiding place;
you protect me form trouble.
You surround me with songs of victory.
Interlude
The Lord says, "I will guide you along the
best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you.
Do not be like a senseless horse or mule
that needs a bit and a briddle to keep it
under control."
Many sorrows come to the wicked,
but unfailing love surrounds those who
trust the Lord.
So rejoice in the Lord, and be glad, all you
who obey him!
Shout for joy, all you whose hearts are
pure!
Now isn't that amazing!? I mean it was relevant back then and it still is today! You know it's saying to confess your sins so that you will be saved, so you can spend eternity with God! Now sorry for the font issues if you see them, there was a technical difficulty. I highlighted unfailing love in the Psalm because all throughout The Bible I read about God's unfailing love! I think it is amazing and wonderful that His love never fails and never gives up on us!
I hope you liked this I think I'm going to a daily sharing of scripture from now on! I am off for now, I have a busy day ahead! I will post more later! Have a great day and an even greater tomorrow! Good bye and God Bless!
<3
~Ciao~
Luke 23:1-25:
Jesus' Trial before Pilate
Then the entire council took Jesus over to Pilate, the Roman governor. They began at once to state their case: "this man has been leading our people to ruin by telling them no to pay their taxes to the Roman government and by claiming he is the Messiah, a king." So Pilate asked him, "Are you the King of Jews?" Jesus replied, "Yes, it is as you say." Pilate turned to the leading priests and to the crowd and said, "I find nothing wrong with this man!" Then they became desperate. "But he is causing riots everywhere he goes, all over Judea, from Galilee to Jerusalem!" "Oh, is he a Galilean?" Pilate asked. When they answered that he was, Pilate sent him to Herod Antipas, because Galilee was under Herod's jurisdiction, and Herod happened to be in Jerusalem at the time. Herod was delighted at the opportunity to see Jesus, because he had heard about him and had been hoping for a long to see perform a miracle. He asked Jesus question after question, but Jesus refused to answer. Meanwhile, the leading priests and teachers or religious law stood there shouting their accusations. Now Herod and his soldiers began mocking and ridiculing Jesus. They put a royal robe on him and sent him back to Pilate. Herod and Pilate, who had been enemies before, became friends that day. Then Pilate called together the leading priests and other religious leaders, along with the people, and he announced his verdict. "You brought this man to me, accusing him of leading a revolt. I have examined him thoroughly on this point in your presence and find him innocent. Herod came to same conclusion and sent him back to us. Nothing this man has done calls for the death penalty. So I will have him flogged, but then I will release him." Then a mighty roar rose from the crowd, and with one voice they shouted, "Kill him, and release Barabbas to us!" (Barabbas was in prison for murder and for taking part in insurrection in Jerusalem against the government.) Pilate argued with them, because he wanted to release Jesus. But they shouted, "Crucify him! Crucify him!" For the third time he demanded, " Why? What crime has he committed? I have found no reason to sentence him to death. I will therefore flog him and let him go." But the crowd shouted louder and louder for Jesus' death, and their voices prevailed. So Pilate sentenced Jesus to die as they demanded. As they requested, he released Barabbas, the man in prison for insurrection and murder. But he delivered Jesus over to them to do as they wished.
Isn't that just horrible!? I know He had to go through that so we can all be alive today, but it is just awful. It goes to show that human nature really hasn't evolved that much. I mean we don't go around demanding to crucify people, but the violent nature is still around. Now the next part of scripture I am going to share with you is Genesis 41.
Genesis 41
Pharaoh's Dream
Two years later, Pharaoh dreamed that he was standing on the bank of the Nile River. In his dream, seven fat, healthy-looking cows suddenly came up out of the river and began grazing along its bank.Then seven other cows came up from the river, but these were very ugly and gaunt. These cows went over and stood beside the fat cows.Then the thin, ugly cows ate the fat ones! At this point in the dream, Pharaoh woke up. Soon he fell asleep again and had a second dream. This time he saw seven heads of grain on one stalk, with every kernel well formed and plump. Then suddenly, seven more heads appeared on the stalk, but these were shriveled and withered by the east wind. And these thin heads swallowed up the seven plump, well-formed heads! Then Pharaoh woke up again and realized it was a dream. The next morning, as he thought about it, Pharaoh became very concerned as to what the dreams might mean. So he called for all the magicians and wise men of Egypt and told them about his dreams, but not one of them could suggest what they meant. Then the king's cup-bearer spoke up. "Today I have been reminded of my failure," he said. "Some time ago, you were angry with the chief baker and me, and you imprisoned us in the palace of the captain of the guard. One night the chief baker and I each had a dream, and each dream had a meaning. We told the dreams to a young Hebrew man who was a servant of the captain of the guard. He told us what each of our dreams meant, and everything happened just as he said it would. I was restored to my position as cup-bearer, and the chief baker was executed and impaled on a pole." Pharaoh sent for Joseph at once, and he was brought hastily from the dungeon. After a quick shave and change of clothes, he went in and stood in Pharaoh's presence. "I had a dream last night," Pharaoh told him, "and none of these men can tell me what it means. But I have heard that you can interpret dreams, and that is why I have called for you." "It is beyond my power to do this," Joseph replied. "But God will tell you what it means and will set you at ease." So Pharaoh told him the dream. "I was standing on the bank of the Nile River," he said. "Suddenly, seven fat, healthy-looking cows came up out of the river and began grazing along its bank. But then seven other cows came up from the river. They were very thin and gaunt -- in fact, I've never seen such ugly animals in all the land of Egypt. These thin, ugly cows ate up the seven fat ones that had come out of the river first, but afterward they were still as ugly and gaunt as before! Then I woke up. "A little later I had another dream. This time there were seven heads of grain on one stalk, and all seven heads were plump and full. Then out of the same stalk came seven withered heads, shriveled by the east wind. And the withered heads swallowed up the plump ones! I told these dreams to my magicians, but not one of them could tell me what they mean." "Both dreams mean the same thing," Joseph told Pharaoh. "God was telling you what he is about to do. The seven fat cows and the seven plump heads of grain both represent seven years of prosperity. The seven thin, ugly cows and the seven withered heads of grain represent seven years of famine. This will happen just as I have described it, for God has shown you what he is about to do. The next seven years will be a period of great prosperity throughout the land of Egypt. But afterward there will be seven years of famine so great that all the prosperity will be forgotten and wiped out. Famine will destroy the land. This famine will be so terrible that even the memory of the good years will be erased. As for having the dream twice, it means that the matter has been decreed by God and that he will make these events happen soon. "My suggestion is that you find the wisest man in Egypt and put him in charge of a nationwide program. Let Pharaoh appoint officials over the land, and let them collect one-fifth of all the crops during the seven good years. Have them gather all the food and grain of these good years into the royal storehouses, and store it away so there will be food in the cities. That way there will be enough to eat when the seven years of famine come. Otherwise disaster will surely strike the land, and all the people will die." Joseph's suggestions were well received by Pharaoh and his advisers. As they discussed who should be appointed for the job, Pharaoh said, "Who could do it better than Joseph? For he is a man who is obviously filled with the spirit of God." Turning to Joseph, Pharaoh said, "Since God has revealed the meaning of the dreams to you, you are the wisest man in the land! I hereby appoint you to direct this project. You will manage my household and organize all my people. Only I will have a rank higher than yours." And Pharaoh said to Joseph, "I hereby put you in charge of the entire land of Egypt." Then Pharaoh placed his own signet ring on Joseph's finger as a symbol of his authority. He dressed him in beautiful clothing and placed the royal gold chain about his neck. Pharaoh also gave Joseph the chariot of his second-in-command, and wherever he went the command was shouted, "Kneel down!" So Joseph was put in charge of all Egypt. And Pharaoh said to Joseph, "I am the king, but no one will move a hand or a foot in the entire land of Egypt without your approval." Pharaoh renamed him Zaphenath-paneah and gave him a wife -- a young woman named Asenath, the daughter of Potiphera, priest of Heliopolis. So Joseph took charge of the entire land of Egypt. He was thirty years old when he entered the service of Pharaoh, the king of Egypt. And when Joseph left Pharaoh's presence, he made a tour of inspection throughout the land. And sure enough, for the next seven years there were bumper crops everywhere. During those years, Joseph took a portion of all the crops grown in Egypt and stored them for the government in nearby cities. After seven years, the granaries were filled to overflowing. There was so much grain, like sand on the seashore, that the people could not keep track of the amount. During this time, before the arrival of the first of the famine years, two sons were born to Joseph and his wife, Asenath, the daughter of Potiphera, priest of Heliopolis. Joseph named his older son Manasseh, for he said, "God has made me forget all my troubles and the family of my father." Joseph named his second son Ephraim, for he said, "God has made me fruitful in this land of my suffering." At last the seven years of plenty came to an end. Then the seven years of famine began, just as Joseph had predicted. There were crop failures in all the surrounding countries, too, but in Egypt there was plenty of grain in the storehouses. Throughout the land of Egypt the people began to starve. They pleaded with Pharaoh for food, and he told them, "Go to Joseph and do whatever he tells you." So with severe famine everywhere in the land, Joseph opened up the storehouses and sold grain to the Egyptians. And people from surrounding lands also came to Egypt to buy grain from Joseph because the famine was severe throughout the world.
Wow! Could you imagine that now? I mean a famine now would devastate this entire world! The last part of scripture I want to share with you is in the Book of Psalms Chapter 32
Psalms 32
A pslam of David,
Oh, what joy for those
whose rebellion is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight!
Yes what joy for those
whose record the Lord has cleared of sin,
whose lives are lived in complete
honesty!
When I refused to confess my sin,
I was weak and miserable,
and I groaned all day long.
Day and night your hand of discipline was
heavy on me.
My strength evaporated like water in
the summer heat.
Interlude
Finally, I confessed all my sins to you
and stopped trying to hide them.
I said to myself, "I will confess my
rebellion to the Lord."
And you forgave me! All of my guilt is
gone.
Interlude
Therefore, let all the godly confess their
rebellion to you while there is time,
that they may not drown in the
floodwaters of judgment.
For you are my hiding place;
you protect me form trouble.
You surround me with songs of victory.
Interlude
The Lord says, "I will guide you along the
best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you.
Do not be like a senseless horse or mule
that needs a bit and a briddle to keep it
under control."
Many sorrows come to the wicked,
but unfailing love surrounds those who
trust the Lord.
So rejoice in the Lord, and be glad, all you
who obey him!
Shout for joy, all you whose hearts are
pure!
Now isn't that amazing!? I mean it was relevant back then and it still is today! You know it's saying to confess your sins so that you will be saved, so you can spend eternity with God! Now sorry for the font issues if you see them, there was a technical difficulty. I highlighted unfailing love in the Psalm because all throughout The Bible I read about God's unfailing love! I think it is amazing and wonderful that His love never fails and never gives up on us!
I hope you liked this I think I'm going to a daily sharing of scripture from now on! I am off for now, I have a busy day ahead! I will post more later! Have a great day and an even greater tomorrow! Good bye and God Bless!
<3
~Ciao~
Friday, January 31, 2014
just realized...
i just realized something! i should have this morning! i spread the word about the mm video so much today! that's fine and dandy, nothing wrong with it, but i should have been spreading a different message! i should have spread God's message! The Gospel and everything about it! If i can do that every single day someone may benefit and come to know the Lord and get saved! I feel awful that I didn't think about this until now, but I am gonna change that! I am, starting now going to spread God's word, messages, gospel, and love as much as I can! It would be amazing to just to hear or see one person change through that! So that was a quick post and again good night and God Bless!
!Ciao!
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Feeling Crappy vs. Feeling AWESOME
hey guys! wassup!!! Midnight Memories has 3,921,458 views as of now! I mean seriously? Is that all?! I feel as if there should be SOOOOOOOOOOO much more! That's just my opinion!
Anyways about my day! It was absolutely amazing! I had an awesome day! Most of it was spent refreshing not replaying the MM video! The other part was great! I got an early start, and went straight to work! I helped clean and take out old stuff we didn't need! I ran on toast and chips, which I know is bad sorry, and water. I have drank soooooooooo much water today it's unbelievable! I have this big water bottle I just fill up, let get cold, and then smash it in! I felt amazing all day just chugging the water! I did 100 squats again for the second day in a row and I am feeling the burn it hurts to squat now! WHICH IS GREAT! I mean if I never get uncomfortable I will never get results! So i'm gonna keep doing that! I am still waiting on news for a job offer! I also painted my nails! They are pretty, and I did the Warrior Project! I will be posting that pic tomorrow! Now for something I kinda am kicking myself in the rear for! I buckled under and drank a cup and a half of Pepsi today! Also, I ate a very small bite of a mini snickers bar! I know, I know I'm feel horrible! I actually think that soda is gone for good now! You know all day long I have had so much energy drinking solely water and after that soda and bit of candy I feel so crappy! Oh I almost forgot I had some sour gummy worms, half a bag to be exact. I feel rotten! This is actually a wake up call for me because I feel so bad that I truly believe I have given up soda and candy for good! I mean I hate the way I am feeling right now! I haven't had a headache all day until now! Excedrin isn't even working! I think my problem is that I don't have a good support system! No one in my immediate circle is encouraging me! That's bad, I mean I am running on pure self-motivation! Oh well, I mean hopefully I'll make it through this! Now for something a bit more serious.
So I went with my mom to pick up my sister at school today and we went to the store. As we were driving to the light we got up behind Warrior and her mom going to the bank. At first I was like OMG get up close to her so I can wave, but then a pit rose in my stomach! We ended not catching up before they turned, but it was a weird feeling. I believe it was something or even God telling me that it so isn't time for me to have any kind of contact with Warrior just yet! In the future we may, but not at this moment. It's take a lot for her to be able to remotely trust me again and for me to trust myself. I mean I can be a horrible friend sometimes, I am shitty to a lot of people. I am learning how to be around others again, and I think that when it is time we may be friends again. Who knows though? I mean I'm not in charge here, God is. If He wants me back in her life and her back in mine He will make a way. I personally hope that we can be again, but not right now. I can't trust myself to have any more people in my life that I can just be mean to. I have pretty much almost stopped talking to my ex-roommate and I feel a lot better about myself without that certain person in my life every single day. Not gonna lie about that anymore and pretend we were the perfect best friends when we weren't. I feel horrible saying that, but it's true.
Anyways I hope you enjoyed this post and I will see you and your beautiful awesome selfs next post!
As of right now MM video is up to 4,127,064 views! THAT IS BUZZIN! (as the boys would say!) At this rate we will break the record soon! Fingers crossed! Good night and God Bless!
<3
~Ciao~
Anyways about my day! It was absolutely amazing! I had an awesome day! Most of it was spent refreshing not replaying the MM video! The other part was great! I got an early start, and went straight to work! I helped clean and take out old stuff we didn't need! I ran on toast and chips, which I know is bad sorry, and water. I have drank soooooooooo much water today it's unbelievable! I have this big water bottle I just fill up, let get cold, and then smash it in! I felt amazing all day just chugging the water! I did 100 squats again for the second day in a row and I am feeling the burn it hurts to squat now! WHICH IS GREAT! I mean if I never get uncomfortable I will never get results! So i'm gonna keep doing that! I am still waiting on news for a job offer! I also painted my nails! They are pretty, and I did the Warrior Project! I will be posting that pic tomorrow! Now for something I kinda am kicking myself in the rear for! I buckled under and drank a cup and a half of Pepsi today! Also, I ate a very small bite of a mini snickers bar! I know, I know I'm feel horrible! I actually think that soda is gone for good now! You know all day long I have had so much energy drinking solely water and after that soda and bit of candy I feel so crappy! Oh I almost forgot I had some sour gummy worms, half a bag to be exact. I feel rotten! This is actually a wake up call for me because I feel so bad that I truly believe I have given up soda and candy for good! I mean I hate the way I am feeling right now! I haven't had a headache all day until now! Excedrin isn't even working! I think my problem is that I don't have a good support system! No one in my immediate circle is encouraging me! That's bad, I mean I am running on pure self-motivation! Oh well, I mean hopefully I'll make it through this! Now for something a bit more serious.
So I went with my mom to pick up my sister at school today and we went to the store. As we were driving to the light we got up behind Warrior and her mom going to the bank. At first I was like OMG get up close to her so I can wave, but then a pit rose in my stomach! We ended not catching up before they turned, but it was a weird feeling. I believe it was something or even God telling me that it so isn't time for me to have any kind of contact with Warrior just yet! In the future we may, but not at this moment. It's take a lot for her to be able to remotely trust me again and for me to trust myself. I mean I can be a horrible friend sometimes, I am shitty to a lot of people. I am learning how to be around others again, and I think that when it is time we may be friends again. Who knows though? I mean I'm not in charge here, God is. If He wants me back in her life and her back in mine He will make a way. I personally hope that we can be again, but not right now. I can't trust myself to have any more people in my life that I can just be mean to. I have pretty much almost stopped talking to my ex-roommate and I feel a lot better about myself without that certain person in my life every single day. Not gonna lie about that anymore and pretend we were the perfect best friends when we weren't. I feel horrible saying that, but it's true.
Anyways I hope you enjoyed this post and I will see you and your beautiful awesome selfs next post!
As of right now MM video is up to 4,127,064 views! THAT IS BUZZIN! (as the boys would say!) At this rate we will break the record soon! Fingers crossed! Good night and God Bless!
<3
~Ciao~
MIDNIGHT MEMORIES!!!
IT'S HERE! MIDNIGHT MEMORIES VIDEO IS OUT ON VEVO NOW! SO GO WATCH IT RIGHT THIS SECOND! OK?! I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T LIKE ONE DIRECTION, JUST GO WATCH IT! IT'S AMAZING JUST LIKE ALL OF THEIR VIDEOS! WE ARE GOING TO BREAK THE RECORD SOON I JUST KNOW! SO GO HELP US BREAK IT! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkx9kCdaaMg THERE IT IS RIGHT THERE! AND I'M GOING TO UPLOAD A VIDEO OF ME WATCHING IT! SO JUST GO WATCH IT! THAT VIDEO ABOVE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BELOW BUT I AM EXPERIENCING TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES! BUT JUST WATCH IT YOU WILL LOVE IT I PROMISE!
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Time is flying
O my G-O-S-H guys! It's almost February! I can't even believe it! Time is literally flying so fast! Like what is going on? It's 2014 and on top of that January is almost over! So tomorrow is a another big day for Lovatics! The other day was a big day because it was Lovatic Day! It was 3 years Unbroken for Demi! She has been out of rehab and strong for 3 years this past Tuesday! That's amazing! I remember when she went into rehab, t doesn't see like it was that long ago, but it really was. Ok so tomorrow is the warrior project for all Lovatics! On our wrists we will write Skyscraper if we know someone who is dealing with self-harm, an eating, etc. We write Unbroken on our wrists if we are currently dealing with self-harm, an eating disorder, etc. Warrior if you are in a recovery stage and Strong just to show support. Now this can be anything like self-harm, eating disorder, mental disorder, addiction, anything really. I think this is going to be cool! I personally will be writing Skyscraper, Warrior, and Strong! This explains some of what she has gone through and a description of each thing.
So if you want support not only us, but Demi as well! Anyways about time flying! I am baffled by how much time has passed, and how fast it is passing these days! I think we shouldn't squander a day away. Like I have been lazy a lot this past week, but I am getting to a point where I am am giving myself individual projects to stay busy! Like today, I was so productive! I was surprised at how productive I was. I got up fairly early, I mean it was like 10 something, but I didn't waste a second of time today! I was a clean machine! I ate toast for breakfast, which in hindsight is not the healthiest or best breakfast, but it filled me up temporarily. It was also all I had to eat. So then I watched like about 10 minutes of a show, but then I got off my ass and told myself I wasn't about to spend most of the day watching t.v. So I grabbed my laundry and got it folded and put away and then I cleaned out a section of the closet I am using right now and rearranged it to where it is accessible. Then I put some good tunes on and did the dishes, took out the trash, made a lunch of spaghetti; which turned out horrible, (I ended up eating toast again), then I swept the entire living room floor, and the kitchen floor as well. I put clean rugs in the bathroom and cleaned up a little in there. I made up my bed, which is the couch currently. I organized all of my stuff that I use everyday into a little space on the coffee table in the corner of the room, and I even got a good workout doing all of this! Now I mentioned a Youtuber in my last blog called Freelee the Banana Girl, she is awesome. She does 100 squats a day, on top of her other workout of course, but still 100 every day! I did that early this evening and I feel amazing! It took the length of one song to finish 100, the song was Talk Dirty to Me by Jason Derulo. It's a GREAT song to workout to! Anyways as I was talking about before, I think we need to cherish every moment we have on this earth! You know? If we want to do something we should just go and do it while we have the motivation and the mindset to do it! We shouldn't waste time making so many plans and never following through with them I used to be a big planner, and yes I do have daily things I like to do, but I don't plan way crazy into the future because I don't know what it holds. Only God does! Yes it's been awhile since I have really mentioned God in my blogs and I apologize for that! My relationship with Him has actually been great lately. I read The Bible every single day, sometimes I wait till' night to read,which is bad, but I am reading. I am also praying to Him, and talking to Him, and really just growing in my relationship with Him. GOD IS GREAT! He has blessed me so much more than I deserve and I am so thankful for all He has done!
Yeah so guess what!? It's been, I believe, almost a full week without soda! I know what you are thinking: What? I thought this month you were kicking soda all together Maggs!! Well yes, but it takes 31 days to form a habit and be able to stick with it! I can tell you it hasn't been easy, but I am doing it! I love water so much! I am only drinking it currently, which is good, however; I need other drinks. I want some juice or tea, but I don't have any so water is my drink right now! Going back to talking about Freelee, her diet is a high carb/raw till 4/vegan and it is absolutely amazing! Not only does she look great, but she feels great and is very healthy! Now a lot of people are hating on her lately and I just hate to see that happen. You know we should all encourage one another and be kind! Besides that, I want to adopt her lifestyle! Which is the raw till 4 vegan diet and high intensity workouts twice a week! As of right now I can't do that. I simply don't have the money to bankroll it! So I am going to slowly work my way into this diet. I am cutting out beef entirely, and I pretty much have already done that! I am cutting lunch meat out, already done a long time ago, and cutting a #%! load of junk food out as well! I may eat meat and animal by products, but it won't be a vast majority of them! I know that's not the most ideal, but it's all I can do right now. Once I get a job, which I have applied everywhere, and I can save up enough to actually do this fully raw/cooked vegan diet I will do it with ease! So fingers crossed I can get a steady job! So I know this is a really long post, just bare with me here! I applied at Finish Line online earlier and all over Texarkana, so I am just hoping and praying I receive news. I even applied up at the 7-11 here in Avery! Let's just hope something good soon! Ok so as of now I have lost another 3 pounds! Which is awesome! I mean I celebrate every pound lost, which I believe is actually helping me!
WeeklyChris uploaded a new video today so I was you I would go check it out right now, like stop reading and go watch it! It's about not comparing yourself to others. It's amazing and actually very helpful. I tend to compare my outer self to everyone else! I know that's bad, but I do it, I'm trying to stop. So what did you think of the video? Well I know not many, if not any, will actually comment responding to that question. Oh well.
Anyways I am going to wrap this long blog up and leave you with a question. Do you feel like you compare yourself to others too much? I hope you liked this post and I will see you all later! Good nigh and God Bless!
<3
~Ciao~
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Idea!
So hey guys! How's everyone out there? I know t's been 5 days since I have posted, but 3 of them I didn't have internet access!
Anyways... I have been educating myself about going vegan and I stumbled upon these videos about a different version of the diet. It's called the high carb, raw vegan diet!
Now wait, let me explain!
I know what some of you are thinking! WHAAAT? CARBS ARE BAD FOR YOU!! No, not all of them are. At least not the way I will be eating them, if I can go on this diet. It's intense! Basically I eat a #$@^#% load of fruit twice a day or until four p.m., drink at least gallon of FILTERED water per day, and then a root based cooked meal at night! Let me break it down for you.
sorry that was a long intermission i had tried to post this and a whole lot more last night but it messed up and i couldn't! so i will re-break it down for you!
Every day I will eat raw foods/organic foods until 4 p.m. which is like a 8:30 a.m. bfast and then like a 2 p.m. lunch with like maybe a snack or two in between! This will consist of only green leafy or firm veggies and of course fruit! Then at night I will eat a cooked veggie or root based meal as some call it! I can make some fries with nothing added just steamed then baked, or I can make some corn pasta, gluten free, with a gluten free, low sodium, low fat pasta sauce to go with either! This diet is gonna be all about abundance! I will be eating a lot! I think I can do this! I will also be working out, I don't know if it will be everyday, but I will be getting at least 2 workouts a week! So sorry to cut this short, but I didn't get a lick of sleep last night or this morning and I feel as if I need to lay down! So that is why I will be doing. I hope you enjoyed this blog and if you did thank you! I see how many page views I get everyday and I am rather surprised I thought no one read this! Well tell me what you think about my idea! I will post more about it soon! Love you all! God Bless!
~Ciao~
Anyways... I have been educating myself about going vegan and I stumbled upon these videos about a different version of the diet. It's called the high carb, raw vegan diet!
Now wait, let me explain!
I know what some of you are thinking! WHAAAT? CARBS ARE BAD FOR YOU!! No, not all of them are. At least not the way I will be eating them, if I can go on this diet. It's intense! Basically I eat a #$@^#% load of fruit twice a day or until four p.m., drink at least gallon of FILTERED water per day, and then a root based cooked meal at night! Let me break it down for you.
sorry that was a long intermission i had tried to post this and a whole lot more last night but it messed up and i couldn't! so i will re-break it down for you!
Every day I will eat raw foods/organic foods until 4 p.m. which is like a 8:30 a.m. bfast and then like a 2 p.m. lunch with like maybe a snack or two in between! This will consist of only green leafy or firm veggies and of course fruit! Then at night I will eat a cooked veggie or root based meal as some call it! I can make some fries with nothing added just steamed then baked, or I can make some corn pasta, gluten free, with a gluten free, low sodium, low fat pasta sauce to go with either! This diet is gonna be all about abundance! I will be eating a lot! I think I can do this! I will also be working out, I don't know if it will be everyday, but I will be getting at least 2 workouts a week! So sorry to cut this short, but I didn't get a lick of sleep last night or this morning and I feel as if I need to lay down! So that is why I will be doing. I hope you enjoyed this blog and if you did thank you! I see how many page views I get everyday and I am rather surprised I thought no one read this! Well tell me what you think about my idea! I will post more about it soon! Love you all! God Bless!
~Ciao~
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