i know i promised...

hey guys wassup? I know I said I wasn't going to rant to you but I have to get this out! Ok so it's been a few days and nothing from anywhere I have applied! It's very frustrating that not one damn person wants me to work for them, I know I don't have any experience whatsoever in the work world, oh you know except for common sense, but no that's not valuable to anyone! Can anyone out there help me!? Sorry I shouldn't even ask that, but I am past the point of desperate! I want to be able to help my mom out and save up for a place of my own. I may end up moving to Dallas and see what I can get out there. I just am at the end of my rope here! I want to make a life for myself! College isn't for me, I have learned that, but right now it would be an improvement form the shitty situation I am in right now. Yes that is selfish of me and yes there are people far worse off than me, but right now I am concerned about myself, nothing I can do to help those people until I help myself. I just can't take it anymore! That is affecting every aspect of my life, especially my health. I feel sad again and depressed and I cry again at nothing. It is just too much for me! Okay so I hope ya'll like this, sorrynotsorry if you don't. Have a great night of rest and I will see you awesome people next blog!

P.S. Thanks for reading and letting me rant again!


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wassup?

hey errrrrrbody?!!! how are you on this lovely morning!? I am having a nice fresh start to an awesome day. I was feeling a little crappy when I woke up, but I had some breakfast and now I feel better. So far today I haven't done much, but I am about to do a LOT! I am going to reorganize my closet to where everything actually fits! I am gonna clean and possibly do the dishes again. I will hopefully stay as vegan as possible. I had some wheat toast for bfast, 3 pieces; but bread is so high in sodium so I am going to try to stay away form it. Now in this journey I wish to embark on I will have a back up plan. My first plan is to go high car, low fat, low sodium, raw vegan. Plan B is to go cooked vegan, which is just eating faux foods, like faux mac n'cheese and so on and so forth. I hope I can do this, I really believe the cooked food cravings are leaving because I saw my family eating a burger yesterday and I didn't even have an urge to go and make myself one. I see commercials about all these cooked foods and animal products and they just don't appeal to me like they used to.

Ok so today's scriptures are Hebrews 1 and it is amazing, it's about what God made Christ for and what He made angels for. I love it! The second is Genesis 45:1-46:27, and that is a continuation of yesterday's and it is still captivating. The last is Psalm 36, that is about how the wicked and evil doers plot against the Godly and how think and how that when God conquers them, they don't return. I hope you read those verses!

So I hope everyone had a great time reading this and I hope it was relevant to your day. I will be posting again later today if I can, and that may include some pictures! Ok so I am gonna go because my computer is about to restart, but I wish you a great day and I will see you awesome people next blog!


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Hi Loyals!

Hey guys wassup? Oh my gosh it's been such a great day! I have had so much fun today. I made some plain mash potatoes and a bunch of salad today! Salad is so amazingly satisfying, I can't even believe sometimes. I feel so full, overly full almost! So I watched a Freelee the Banana Girl video today, a new one, and it made me cry! I have seen a video about the slaughterhouse before, but never something quite like this. I will never touch meet again! I will never eat another animal by product again if I can help it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kD0RTBtl0Pc  I recommend you go watch this right away, in my opinion if you are gonna eat a burger you should at least know what is in it. I just am absolutely gutted by all of this. I can't believe that people would actually do that to these poor defenseless animals. It makes me sick to my stomach that I used to eat these animals, and that I shoveled all this crap into my system.

Anyways, today has been a productive day! I washed the dishes, cleaned out the fridge about halfway and I did some laundry. I just completed my vision book! It is comprised of things that I want out of life, what I want to look like, and inspiration. I also put some foods in there that I can eat to my heart's content! I think that is gonna be the way I jump start this life style! There is this other video that I absolutely love, it is a parody of Roar by Katy Perry and it's pretty awesome! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Mx5p954rjU Def watch this too! It is very catchy.

Okay so that is pretty much it for now,I will post tomorrow if I can. Until then I will see you awesome people next blog! God Bless!

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good morning

Hey guys! I should apologize for yesterday, I was stressed out and overheated. I'm sorry. I have anger issues that I need to deal with. I need to realize that when something doesn't go as planned I just need to take a step back and breathe. I shouldn't take it out on anybody, especially you guys, you, my loyals, are awesome. So no more! If I feel the need to scream or be angry I am going to try a different outlet to express it. So how is everyone today? I am feeling great, I hope you are too. Last night I stress ate, I won't tel you what it was, but it was bad. I gotta learn not to emotional eat anymore. I'm trying, it's an uphill battle, but I am committed! I am going to win this battle.
Ok today's scriptures I would like to share are Luke 24:13-53, it's awesome; it continues the story about Jesus and it amazes me how people interacted back then. The next verse is Genesis 44, now that is a continuation and still very captivating. It is how Joseph wants to keep his little brother there with him. To me it's all about family, family is what holds everyone together, and we should cherish what family we have. The last verse of scripture I would like to share is Psalm 35, that is an awesome psalm about how the Lord will protect his people if we just ask. You know if you ask you will receive, knock and the door will be opened. I hope you like those and you actually look them up and devote some time to God.
So today I don't have much planned I am going to try to eat healthy and try to exercise, but  I don't know how much I will get done. I am feeling a bit lazy today, it isn't the best to be lazy, but everyone needs some rest every once in awhile. So I will update you later if I still have internet, but I wish you a great rest of the day. I hope you found this mildly entertaining and I will see you awesome people next blog. God Bless

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This world is f**ked up!

America is a screw up system where no one and I mean no one can get a job! I have applied an applied everywhere and not a damn thing! I was just trying to apply at Olive Garden, but no the website has to log me out of it and just stop my application. This world is so stupid! This is my rant so bear with me and if I cuss and you don't like it then get off of my blog! It's like the universe doesn't want me to have a job, doesn't want me to succeed! You know? You catch my drift? UGH!!! I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!
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Ok now that it is out of system virtually, I may go scream into a pillow! I know I need to calm down, but I am just so damn mad! UGH! There's is my mini rant!

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It's gonna be the best day of my life, my liiiife!!!

Good morning everybody! How are you?! I am having such a great day already! I realized that sharing the entire scripture may be a little too much for some people. Now I know not everyone has all the time in the world to read this, even though I believe we should all always strive to make time for God. I also realize not everyone reads the NLT version of The Bible so I will just give you the verses and it will be up to you to go read them. The first verse of scripture is Luke 24:1-12. It's about Jesus' resurrection. The second verse is Genesis 43, and it's a continuation about Joseph and his brothers and the famine. It's very captivating, I can't wait to read the next part. The last verse of scripture I would like to share is Psalm 34. I like this psalm because it gives us a tidbit of a guideline, but then it gives us hope for a future! Well I hope that you will take the precious time to read those verses and devote some time to God. I know I always feel better when I do, and I always have a better day when I start it off with God. 

So today so far I had some toast, I know that it isn't raw, but that is all I got. I am going to try to eat as healthy as possible. I will be eating a lot of potatoes today! You know I used to eat this chicken rice and I ate it for years not knowing what it was truly made of. It turns out that it has chicken fat in it. I was disgusted to the point where I wanted to throw up. I will NEVER eat that again. Now I just hope I can get my family on board soon. 

So guys I may not be posting for awhile, because the internet and cable will be cut off for a few months. I am just letting you know I won't post because of that , not because of lack of inspiration. 

Well I hope you found this interesting and I will see you awesome people next blog. 

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RAWESOME Day!

Today was amazing! I have eaten raw all day! I ate oranges and oranges and a salad until 4 p.m. and then I baked some potato wedges with no oil, salt, pepper, and the best part they tasted amazing! I feel amazing too! I didn't eat as much as I should have because we don't have enough food in this house. I mean we have food, but not the right kind of food. I also didn't get as much filtered water as I should have, but I have been eating fruit and veggies which sort of makes up for it. I sort of fruited and rooted myself today! I'm proud, today was a victory. My first full day as a raw vegan! In a sense it was absofruitly rawesome! I just hope I can keep doing this! I resisted temptation when my mother made fish sticks and I resisted frying up the potatoes with some pepper and ketchup. I had no idea that potatoes had a natural salty taste and I haven't been this happy and satisfied and full in a while! So now for a little rant. For the first time in a while my ex roommate talked to me on Facebook. It just made me realize why I never want a friend like her in my life again. I told her about this lifestyle I want to be a part of and she just knocked me down. I explained it to her and she said that that it was, and I quote," Ewh..... Blech..... Boring ass food I like good ass food.." Really? Since when are yummy fruits and veggies boring or gross? They are the best things in life for you. When my mother was pregnant with me she mainly ate salads and I LOOOOVE me some lettuce and tomato! I wasn't raised on just plain veggies and fruit, but I always made sure to eat a lot of them. Now that I think about it when I was younger I did eat more veggies and fruit than I do now and I was a lot healthier! I started to gain weight because I started to eat a bunch of crap. Well no more! I am NEVER eating at a fast food restaurant ever again. I actually haven't in awhile, a good long while and I feel better knowing that there is an alternative to eating all these animals and animal products! So here is another rant of mine. Yesterday my mother made a comment about the Baptist church and the Baptist beliefs. She was talking how she wanted to go to church and that I could go with her, but I told her that I will only go to the Baptist church and she said she doesn't like Baptists because we put on a show and we only want the money from donations and the publicity, that it is all fake. I am astonished by this! I literally was shocked to see her say that. I have never in any way knocked any denomination's beliefs and there she was mocking and knocking the denomination and beliefs that I very much believe in! I was speechless! The Baptist denomination is in now way what she said and it hurt to hear that. I feel like I have to defend that all the time and that is just ridiculous! Today when I was watching a church program on t.v. she began to make snarky comments and throw a fit when she saw that I was watching it. It's just awful! Anyways those are my rants for the night, I hope you found this entertaining and useful or hopeful! That is it for now I am off to bed! I will see you awesome people next blog! Good night and God Bless!


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