Anger!

Ok so last night was a fluke Warrior's internet went out and she had to shut down her computer! Everything is ok and my freaking has completely subsided! What has been lit under the butt is ANGER!! Sit back and relax this is going to be a long post!

You ask why would Stay Strong of all people be angry! Well, let me tell you it is my mother! She is so mean to me! She is just mean down to the core! I mean all she does is ridicule me for what I can't do! Criticize me for what I do do, and make me feel completely worthless! I don't understand what stick got lodged up her butt and has stuck up there for almost 18 years now! She has literally been like this my entire existence! Ever since I was born she has never been nice to me! She complains that she sacrificed so much for us, well you know what?!!! My sister, brother, and I have sacrificed a lot too! What being uprooted from your home every single year and a half and finding new friends and a new school and trying not to ask for anything extra b/c we had no money! Well, let's see now has money and she doesn't even spend it on things we need! She buys junk that we DO NOT NEED!!! And she gives it to people who gamble their lives away! What is the point of having money if you do not spend it wisely!?!!!!!!!!!
Ok earlier this afternoon like at about 2:00 p.m. she had us take some trash down to the dumpster; no big deal it wasn't even the slightest bit heavy. Then after about 5 minutes she asks us to take down the old t.v. cart to the trash and this thing is not completely heavy it is just that two people are required to carry it in my opinion! I could not carry this by myself and she was like oooooh weak! And I mocked her and said oooahahahahah  sorry we are all not strong and butch like you! The truth is she is butch! She has well rounded shoulders that are a bit big and you know..... Well she was like call me butch one more time and you will be out of this f***ing house before graduation! After my sister and I returned we had to take another bag down to the dumpster  and when we got back in she said that is the last straw when I take your brother back to Dallas you are leaving and going to live with your father! You are not going to talk to me like that ANYMORE!!! All I said was fine! Nice, calm, and cool! At first I was angry and what you read before this point was anger, but now all I can do is pray for her! I pray she gets everything she ever wanted, but only through Almighty God!


I pray for others too like my bff: Warrior! She and her family have been a blessing to me! I can't fathom how much she means to me! We may have our differences, but I know I have a true and very best friend in her! Thanks girl for everything and I am really going to miss you! You know once I am FORCED to go live in Dallas!


Anyways I send a prayer out there for the ones in Oklahoma going through this tragedy and to everyone all over this beautiful planet!


Thanks to everyone for reading this and I will post and update on the whole being kicked out fiasco sometime soon! God Bless!




Ciao!!!