Broken

What can I say? I was literally falling apart. My world was crashing in, it was hopeless for me! I went down a spiral and could not climb back up! Now let's flash forward five years and here I am at Texas A&M University Texarkana! Yay!! College, living in the dorm, meeting new people, blah blah blah! You know the drill! Well no I'm still broken. I have had two nights where I have felt hopeless, and utterly alone. People try to talk to me and some help calm me down, but I still feel like hell! I need a nightingale! I need someone or something to help these thoughts to go away forever! I hate thinking I should not live, that I don't deserve too! I hate wanting to hurt myself and digging my nails in my arm and my key doesn't even hurt, or make me feel anything. I wanted to feel numb, I just don't want to feel anymore. I know that I will though, over and over again. I can't stop it! So I'll keep trying, I'll wake up everyday the good Lord decides for me too and work through it! That's the only way I know. I have been skipping class a lot lately, which is good and bad, good for my mental helth, but bad for my grades. Oh well I'll get back on top soon! Wish me luck!

 

"Nightingale"

I can't sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything's in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?

I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

Somebody speak to me
Cause I'm feeling like hell
Need you to answer me
I'm overwhelmed
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I need a star to follow
I don't know

I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

I don't know what I'd do without you
Your words are like a whisper come through
As long as you are with me here tonight
I'm good

Can you be my nightingale?
Still so close
I know you're there
Oh, nightingale
You sing to me
I know you're there
'Cause baby you're my sanity
You bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

Oh
Mm, mm
Mm




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