Made in the U.S.A.

That is by the amazing Demi Lovato, of course.


So I did not post my story, sorry. I'm not going to do one, it's pointless. Only one person reads this and no one else is interested in what I have to say. So no story!



Have a great night!



~Ciao~

God's Great Dance Floor

Ok so this song is by Chris Tomlin! I just finished listening to it and I absolutely LOOOOVE it!!!!

Anyways I know I haven't written to ya'll in forever, sorry!!!!
Ok so I need to vent major time!!!


So my roommate and I aren't the best of friends, but we are cool! Until now.....
Last week a big major blowup and $60 of mine ended up missing. She says she did not take it, but I know like mess that she did! I can tell when someone is lying! She def was. After a weekend at my dad's I forgot about it, and moved on. I talked to her about it and came to an agreement that she would pay me back so she would not go to jail, and I was like ok cool! Now she has always been very moody, but I put up with it because I am just the type of person to let it roll off my back. NOT ANYMORE! She uses  my deodorant, perfume, money, laptop, and eats my food I buy and my mom buys WITHOUT asking! EVERY DANG DAY!!!!!!!!!!! Now at first it's ok, but she cusses me out too, and I that is where I draw the line! Ok so I was watching Hocus Pocus on t.v. and she didn't want me to and was like, "Do we have to watch this?" She loathes watching t.v. and hates it when I do. I turned it off and was like, "It's not that big a deal, it's just a movie." I was a little ticked because I'm sick of her telling me what to do! So then she says no what is a big deal is that you always control what happens in this room. (I took out a few words she said, because I don't want that language on here.) And then was like if it's not a big deal I'll get a new bleeping roommate because if your are gonna be bossy and bleep then I don't need that kind of person in my life. I was like fine be my guest!
Then I left the room, slamming the door hard enough to wake any sleeping dead person! I talked to Warrior and her mom and that calmed me down. That is beside the point, I should not have to deal with this! That was the LAST straw! I am DONE! So sick and tired of having to deal with this mess! I refuse to anymore! So I'll be moving out as soon as I can, and I won't have to be her friend any longer!  I'm not going to deal with it for another second, just gonna keep my headphones in and block her out as much as possible.
So there it's all out! I did hold back a LOT of anger, but that's all good!
Tomorrow I will be posting a story I am going to start! It will stretch over many posts. They are actually dreams I have had recently. I got the inspiration from my bestie over at www.Sorry4PartyRocking2012.blogspot.com   !!! Go check it out! It's awesome, like a freakin mind-grenade!


Until then I bid you goodbye and goodnight!



~Ciao~

Broken

What can I say? I was literally falling apart. My world was crashing in, it was hopeless for me! I went down a spiral and could not climb back up! Now let's flash forward five years and here I am at Texas A&M University Texarkana! Yay!! College, living in the dorm, meeting new people, blah blah blah! You know the drill! Well no I'm still broken. I have had two nights where I have felt hopeless, and utterly alone. People try to talk to me and some help calm me down, but I still feel like hell! I need a nightingale! I need someone or something to help these thoughts to go away forever! I hate thinking I should not live, that I don't deserve too! I hate wanting to hurt myself and digging my nails in my arm and my key doesn't even hurt, or make me feel anything. I wanted to feel numb, I just don't want to feel anymore. I know that I will though, over and over again. I can't stop it! So I'll keep trying, I'll wake up everyday the good Lord decides for me too and work through it! That's the only way I know. I have been skipping class a lot lately, which is good and bad, good for my mental helth, but bad for my grades. Oh well I'll get back on top soon! Wish me luck!

 

"Nightingale"

I can't sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything's in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?

I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

Somebody speak to me
Cause I'm feeling like hell
Need you to answer me
I'm overwhelmed
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I need a star to follow
I don't know

I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

I don't know what I'd do without you
Your words are like a whisper come through
As long as you are with me here tonight
I'm good

Can you be my nightingale?
Still so close
I know you're there
Oh, nightingale
You sing to me
I know you're there
'Cause baby you're my sanity
You bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale

Oh
Mm, mm
Mm




Ok until next time! Have a blessed day and see ya on the flippity flop!




~Ciao~